We all have them, a person we'd like to be, someone we look up, a persona to escape to when the real world gets to be too much. Our own version of Superman or Wonder Woman. For me that is ballroom. I am in a job I thought I'd love and most days I do, but it's not exactly what I pictured.
While it has it's moments of excitement for the most part I am in cubicle land, stuck at a computer all day long. To the rest of the world it's the most exciting thing out there and it's this big awesome fascinating thing, but it's almost just a facade. There are these expectations that are quite different from the reality.
And that was my reality for so long, my only reality, it's something I've wanted for years and was almost my destiny and I still want it. But something was missing. For so long I poured everything I had into it which is just not healthy.
On a whim, I started dance and everything changed. Everything became a reference to dance, how many lessons could I get, how to save money on dresses, shoes. My demeanor changed, my body changed, my confidence and self esteem changed. I'm wearing things I never in a million years would have had the courage to wear. It did something that nothing else has ever done.
By day, I'm the mild mannered office worker who clocks in and clocks out, but by night I transform. When I get to put on the eyelashes, makeup and dresses I don't recognize myself but it's a wonderful feeling, that feeling every little girl wants of being a princess swept off her feet by prince charming. It's a tiny glimpse into this fantasy world that not many people get to experience where everything is wonderful and magical.
Even if everything in the rest of the world is going horribly wrong, for 45 minutes I put on my shoes on and everything disappears. It doesn't matter if I've had no sleep, the worst day at work, it all leaves the second I walk through those doors.
2 days until my first showcase! 14 days until the first comp of the year! :)
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