Insanity

I guess today could be a metaphor for life right now. On the edge between insanity and dedicated with obstacles thrown in the mix. I went out the rink today. It is by far not the closest one, but I wanted to see what it had to offer. After careful planning, I had the schedule written out for the two Metros and one bus I would need to get there. Well, thanks to delays in the morning, I missed the bus I intended to take and being on the weekend schedule I had to wait over an hour for the next one. I finally get there, albeit almost an hour later than I anticipated. The place was a zoo, so many people everywhere, kids, adults, and everyone in between. The center of the rink is typically reserved for the more experienced skaters...well here it is reserved for the private lessons/practice. I constantly felt edged out and I'm not sure how much useful practice I actually accomplished. So many people wanting the exact same thing I did and fighting for their spot. There are so many people who are fighting for the same jobs I am in a field that is desperately trying to find its place in the 21st century. I so wanted to just spread my wings and fly but it just wasn't possible. I'm going to keep trying because I know it will be good for me and it will make me a better skater for it. But sometimes I just wish things would go my way without having to fight so hard for it.